Fetish...

Fetish... 

" The act and art of desiring something to the point of requiring it to be truly happy." 

This is how I define fetish now. I have read the dictionary definition countless times. I have experienced My fetish(es) pushed down and denied only to come back fuller and more potent than ever, as if making up for lost time. I have worked through and thus encountered many people whose fear of their partner's fetish(es) ate away at their self esteem and mind. What I believe now regarding a person's fetishizing is so much more simple, even charming. 


Often, a fetish is a part of something much larger... let's use the foot as an example. It is natural, healthy and progressive to 'break down' an overwhelming situation into many small pieces, in order to begin to approach dealing with it. I have come to recognize that the fetishists with triggers like this, 'a small part or portion of the whole', are actually very submissive... among the most devout, as they are so easily overwhelmed by the whole package. I can receive much better pleasure from a submissive serving Me if I permit them to start worshipping and enjoying their fetish first... then move them into any position I desire after. This has far better results than say.... using their fetish as a reward. The reward is transcending it... expanding the fetish, growing it... bringing more fetishes to the surface and the interplay including public play when safely encoded in an otherwise innocuous object.

Then we have the fetishes/ists that are very lengthy and involved... so much detail. I break these down, seeking for the smaller parts inside. This is a scenario... not a fetish. First comes the fetish, then comes the scenario... usually. When a scenario is so particular for someone that the likelihood of it going down as depicted is slim... I must address a 'topping from the bottom' issue. Not since My 'Pro Dom' days have I indulged this sort of scene with satisfaction. I feel the people who have a laundry list of particulars need to be prepared to pay...or at least pay it forward, and in advance. They are shopping. 


Fantasy and scenario differ... by My definition... because fantasy is more fluid, flexible and forgiving. Fantasy is episodic, returning to some similarities but not repeated word for word... there can be enough openness to explore a new path here and there. These definitions are not absolute ~ I basically recognize who is attracted to what and why... then I know how to push or pull their switches should I feel like engaging. This is such a bonding moment. When I do engage it is with all My heart. I have to feel a form of love for you if I am going to become concerned with what makes you truly happy... Luckily I have a lot to give. If love were currency, I would be a billionaire. 

All this talk of fetish... and I still have to confess Mine. Yes, I adore the appeal of rubber latex, sexy boots and shoes, blindfolds and beautiful bondage gear, stainless steel medical instruments, e- stim and electro-sex gear.... but My real fetish is this: Discovering and uncovering the fetishes of others. Getting deep into the heads of others, past the point of psychiatry/therapy... Yes, this gets Me off. Once I know yours, I am piqued in a most delightful and devious way. Perhaps it is also like taking one small part of you, knowing it through committed intensive exploratory and then moving on to learn more about the rest of the person. 


I do like to work from the inside out rather then the outside in. I enjoy the added challenge as I like it when the stakes are high. My interests and activities are so vast, so varied, that explains why almost any fetish is one I have explored. It didn't happen all at once. Things like water sports were anathema to Me for many years. Timing is everything. One thing I can say that I have also observed in others would have to be how hard a fetish will come back to the surface if pushed down or denied for long. And when that happens, your life may be changed so much more than just accepting it as part of you in the first place!

My other constant thoughts and feelings are regarding the fetishes of Our partners. To deny them and not accept them then not share this with them is nearing abusive. If you are so repelled, then give permission for them to still have time enjoying and exploring or else the quality of the relationship is doomed to mediocrity or worse. I really want to impress on people that sharing fantasies... that knowing what your partner is thinking about the moment of their orgasm... is a priceless thing. If a fetish is a perfect pearl in the oyster of your mind then how will you wear yours?

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Visionary

Visionary

I  know what My listeners want because have the capability to know what My listeners need. Some of you will be familiar with the term Remote Viewing, some will not. Since 2000 I have studied, practised and learnt the art and science behind "seeing beyond place and time" with exercises and lessons designed by the most successful Remote Viewers in existence. My journey into this has been as remarkable as it has because of what I remote view when I choose to do it. I am not looking for technical and medical information, as much as I am emotional and personal data. This might explain the apparent Mystical and Majical quality so many of you describe in My work, in Me. This could be the reason why I feel so synchronised with you... because I aim to and because I know a way to be so.

The very first exercise I did, based on military tests for psychic ability was this: to look at a shelf in a room for one minute, then close your eyes and recount and remember... see... everything there. After one minute I opened My eyes, and noticed immediately that where a blank file folder sat... I had seen a face. A strange grey green monster face. I was perplexed that I saw something that was not there, because I had been told that if anything, I would not be able to recall items. Seeing things that were not there was not going to happen for months and only if I practised often and rigorously. I crossed the room and moved the large white folder away. Behind it was a book of special edition Hallowe`en stamps... and on the cover was an illustration of Dracula`s face. I did not know it was there, but according to what practitioners of Remote Viewing tell us: our subconscious does know what is there. This is because someone else`s subconscious knows (the person who put it there) and all subconscious information is connected and accessible. This is the very condensed version.

Needless to say I was encouraged to continue with this practise. I never became discouraged if I missed a day of practise or study. I always picked up right where I left off. I splurged on Myself that Christmas and ordered a set of Remote Viewing audio cassettes that were very much like hypnosis sessions. I had to listen in order, I had to progress through them all, learning to leave My body... travelling anywhere, anytime (past. present or future) returning safely and cognisant of My experience.
I had countless incredible stories to tell, but I never did tell.... I kept a journal. If this becomes of interest to readers, I may open that journal and share more.

For Me, hypnosis is crafted after remote viewing what needs to be created. I want to be relevant and current, authentic and meaningful in your life and in My time.

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Which Came First..?

Which Came First ~ The Domme or the sub?

I grew up in a rural landscape, miles from any convienience stores, let alone urban centres. The television dependant on good weather and rabbit ear antenna function. Channel choices remained in the single digits until I was well into double digits of age. I had only My dreams to guide and entertain Myself and My younger sister as We navigated through acres of country unsupervised but always curfewed. Somehow as long as I was in bed on time, it made no difference how I spent My days. Oh, and I should mention that very good grades and manners were simply expected and I became a perfectionist and overachiever.

All of this to say, I had no introduction to the concepts of kink except dreams and urges from deep within My Self. I do not believe, I *know* that I am the Dominant who has been born, not made. Imagine the reactions of adults who heard an 8 year old declare that if they had a 6 letter
 personalized liscence plate it would read MSTRSS. Or how adults held their tongues as I explained I took up horse riding because of the crops and whips. When asked about marriage, I always said I wanted to be the husband and I wanted the man to be the wife. Yet I was far to feminine to ever be called a tomboy.

Eventually other stimuli was introduced and imagery discovered.... all of which secretly validated Me because I had already moved far, far past it. But that was still long after I had tied My first boyfriend up not really even knowing why, only to  find Myself more attracted to him once in bondage. That was well after I orchestrated mind games on the school yard, where boys found themselves humiliated one after another yet coming back for more... especially the boys who would try to kiss the girls without permission. I was always very strict about boys needing permission from girls, and taught this to My sister and Our best friends.

Somewhere along the way, I heard of certain acts like bondage. I remember feeling like I had to experience what it was like to be on the other side, the recieving end of what I was about to do in a big way to others... especially someone I cared for or wanted to be with. It truly was in that moment that I knew My true Self to be not simply kinky but Dominant... and yes, rather kinky as well. Being tied up only needed to happen the once for Me to realize that there were some things I only wanted to give, not receive. More experimentation was in order and I found willing subjects who ended up becoming clients and for a time I lived a double life as a Pro Domme. I had many friends in the sex trade but none into D/s or B/D or S&M. There was no internet yet and I submerged Myself into cultures in two different countries to explore and learn more.

I uncovered many many things I enjoyed giving...I sensed it would soon be time for Me to learn what I wanted to receive. Then a funny thing happened. I was asked to do something that repulsed Me for a client into extreme humiliation scenarios. I reflexively charged way more instead of saying 'No' and told him how fucked up he was to even ask for such a thing. Part of Me was worried and certain he would just go to someone else who might injure him permanently were I to decline. There was an inner struggle of 'who is really going to be in charge here' especially if I am doing something that I wouldn't have ever wanted to do. In that moment I saw how differently things would be for Me if I could not find a very real way in which to maintain power and control over My subjects at all times. I didn't have a map, but a feeling which I let guide Me. I wanted to receive the power from them by learning what they wanted and needed above all else... and show them how low they would go to taste it. I practiced a very healthy form of dissociation which eventually led to another chain of pursuits: Psychology, Self Hypnosis, NLP and Remote Viewing. In the initial disconnect with a personality structured to function in a warped (to Me) society where lies and half truths are demmanded of Us... and leap of faith... I found something within Myself that illuminated every dark corner I ever had.

If you have ever tried something new only to discover an instant and natural talent for it... a gift.... then you will be able to relate to My first forays into the subjects listed above. Being experienced with trusting My gut and having faith in things unproveable to others, I had no real barriers preventing Me from uncovering more mysteries of the human mind and potential. There was no burden of proof to anyone other than Myself that this might turn into a tool or technique I would use when I felt it appropriate to do so. And there it is revealed for all with eyes to see it: I may react to your submissive needs, I may be drawn into your own personal psychodrama and I might even respond to your humble request(s)... but it will be at My discretion, and based on My needs, whims and mood at that very moment. As I often say, "Timing is everything". I came forth as a Dominant, Feminine, Alpha Female and the boys and men and even women and girls fell over themselves to get Me to notice them. They love the way it feels to receive My attention and encouragement of their submissive serving natures. It's what they are good at and I simply bring out the best in them. Experience, of which I have plenty, is a true teacher. In My case, I will always come first, and you... if you even get to come at all, know that it will be after Me.

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THE SYNERGY of PLEASURE and PAIN


We are going to face pain in our lifetimes and that seems inevitable. Whether it is pain borne of discipline or the pain of regret, somehow the beauty which surrounds us makes it all worthwhile. Pleasure makes us want and pain makes us move.  I have come to appreciate a mix of both, for what is  more powerful and effective than a good idea put into action. When acted upon, desire transforms, empowers and then reveals Me to My Self.

Synergy is defined as: the working together of two things to produce an effect greater than the sum of their individual effects. This speaks of value, of quality and of prize. In a life where we face a finite and limited amount of time... synergy is the definition of working smarter not harder. Quality wins versus quantity because:  None of us have all the time in the world to do all of the things we would.

Examples of synergy are all around us. The one I found in the dictionary was the combined use of muscles and use of drugs to increase the effects of either. This made Me smirk... of course. Sometimes 2 + 2 = 5 ... or more. In hypnosis, My aesthetic and artistic approach to getting intense responses in a wide spectrum of subjects, some of whom I have not even met, absolutely exploits these methods.

Even when we find something we really like, do we need to exclude other options or variations on the winning theme? Combinations involving our main fetish stand to really bend our linear and limited thinking. If we get lost in a ritual, our imaginations and dreams are isolated and die while creativity is held in a prison of regret. Therefore I challenge you to find a new way to make up and act on synergistic living. I do, every day.

Pain and Pleasure. Creating with these twin sensations, I work to mix and blend them into something new yet more than either combined. Folding the contrasting sensations together is part of My recipe for an encounter so sublime it quickly becomes addictive. Oh, and it is so addictive, but it sustains you. A true trap of endless variety and experience to hold you in its arms until you realize, understand and admit these arms are more like tentacles and you sought them out in darkness and in depths at every opportunity.

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